2/4/09

I really miss my grandma. My brother was talking with my mom about it and his way of explaining how the loss feels a year later made allot of sense.
You know that one place you always put your coat when you come in the door, or that space that you sit in and it just feels the best when your reading, or that place where your keys go and they go there every day, the loss is that thing is just gone. And everyday you still expect it to be there, the habit isn't dead and you just wait for your chair or hook or little drawer to come back. But it isn't there anymore. That familiarity and safe feeling place is just gone.